A couple of months ago someone in a crucial position in my life told me that they’d known of & withheld serious information from me that could have made a world of difference to me. They started off by apologizing. Thirty nine (39) years … they kept this info to themselves … OR at least carefully/willfully away from me. People play waaaaay too much &/but when you don’t want to play, their feelings are hurt. This has been a LOT to process. I do know that I’m going to be just fine but, for me, somethings have to change in light of these new revelations. I will not play myself. Nor am I opened to being played with.