Author: Nikki In a Nutshell

… wanna hear it? … here it go …

Over the past several days I’ve been looking at information about lymphodema for myself. I woke up yesterday with the most debilitating pain my lower left back ever. I also got a call from s.p.a. last evening. My hope is in my God & NO one else.

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Yesterday a friend shared an encouraging thought about an address with me.

I’ve learned to copy & paste! TWICE 😄

When a GROWN ASS MAN will 1. hunt your daddy down on the street, 2. go by your mother’s house, 3. show up at your son’s job (being MORE THAN TWICE HIS AGE) asking about YOU, 4. KNOWING his numbers have been blocked for years now, 5. and THEN sit and wait on your property for you to come OR go, 6. BLOCK YOU FROM ESCAPE 7. & RUN UP ON YOU, LITERALLY, all over a period of MANY MONTHS, … what that mean? Tell me. My life has been littered with such ‘entitled beings’. I know them when I see them/hear them speak, close to immediately. These usually get right down to business … So do I.

… you know you AIN’T … (not my lover) … you know you CAIN’T … (not my lover) …

Was going through some old papers and notebooks today with the purpose of parting with most off it filing & even packing bits. I’ve been dreading getting with this stuff for years. Yes years. I believe that I must go through every single piece of paper front & back. So I got started. I’d come across a notebook full of my personal thoughts from 2018. It was a blast from the past! I enjoy reading my entries after much time has gone by. I always always always see growth. I too see where I felt ‘stuck’ where I ask Jehovah for help & where I am vulnerable. I’m honest & much more open when I write & I absolutely love writing.

I’ve been wrestling with this for some time now. Been layin’ LOW. Tryin’ to keep ‘the’ peace but catchin’ ‘the’ noise & confusion still. Denyin’ myself of the life that I am to make way for the rest of the nonsense. NO MORE. Now you gonna get it.