… it just came to me, & sat down to stay, that 2 & 3 were only distractions. Quite the effective kind. The residuals continue to linger doing as much damage as spiritually possible in the world in which we live … finding its way into every aspect of my life to reinforce its hold. Decades have been tied up tight. DECADES. I’ve gone through every emotion available, spending much time with each of them for the past ten years STRAIGHT. Now, I’m tired. There is so much more to be done & I have to do it. I want to do it, be my authentic self … now that I know who I am.