Author: Nikki In a Nutshell

… the undercurrents you need be concerned with. *BAM*

You’ve got three months!

Yesterday, a friend ended our conversation by saying “this is the third time I asked you to do something & you said no”. When I am unable/unwilling to do something/anything I will not play with the answer. Nor might I offer an explanation. However I did let her know that I’d gone out the day before in my car & over did it/ overheated due to my cars air conditioner not working. She said in response that people in Africa would drive ‘that car’ without air conditioner. According to her she’d asked several others who’s answers amounted to ‘no’. No IS a complete sentence. Nothing else needs to be said after that ( in my opinion). She mentioned this being a matter of life & death. HERS apparently, never mind mine. She didn’t even ask what had happened to me while I’d been out in my car in the triple digit heat the day before without air, nor how I was feeling/recovering, WHY NOT, because she didn’t/doesn’t care. I at times can’t/won’t do ‘last minute’ stuffs. She & I both are part of an organization where order and peace are a must. She had not subjected herself to this arrangement & was not happy about me bringing that to her attention. I know we all like to do things our way but when there are arrangements we must stay in line with them. You can’t get mad at ‘me’ because ‘you’ don’t want to follow directions. HAD SHE DONE HER PART from the start, I wouldn’t be writing this piece. What I’m not going to do is be accused of mistreating anyone because I can’t/won’t do whatever is asked of me. I am aware of what I am able/willing to do. Stop asking! I’m not an african taxi driver. I’m living a ‘whole life’ over here that you have no clue of & wouldn’t understand if I were to spell it out for you. I am not at your beck and call. Some/many things we must just simply do for ourselves. THINK. PLAN. DO. WHITHOUT INVOLVING OTHERS. It’s called taking care of yourself.

If I left it, haven’t come to GET it OR haven’t asked you for it, then … I must not want it. Boom.

I’d hate to be stuck with someone at this time in my life. That would be too bad & so sad.

It has been years since I’ve been bothered with ice trays. Cleaning them filling them looking to them for much needed refreshment only to find they are empty or worse with a couple of fragments of ice left behind by someone. Nevertheless I’ve acquired three cute trays & filled one a few hours ago … & now have ice in the freezer. I’m about to have a tall glass of iced tea with ginseng & honey … on ice!

Yesterday my friend called after a long period of no talk. She called today too. We picked up where we left off. No harm no foul.

One of my dearest friends brought to my attention (unintentionally), that she has physically frozen on a few occasions in her basement quarters. Great! I’ll pick up what I believe is the perfect blanket for her! I have three of them myself & have gifted two to pleasantly surprised new owners. My latest is a beautiful engulfing shade of blue that reminds me of heavily overcast skies filled with rain &/or tumultuous seas. Well, she passed on the blanket because there wasn’t a color to her liking (I get it). The air though is gonna be on blast for the next several days in her quarters due to hot weather in the immediate forecast. I hope she don’t freeze. Hopefully I won’t either.

On march 14th, 2022, a ‘friend’ & I spent the day together shopping lunching & talking/listening. Up until & including this day some two & a half months later I’ve been recovering from that association. It weighed me all the way down & held me there for every bit of two & a half months. I will never do that again. My soul has never seen this kind of a clean sweep. TWO AND A HALF MONTHS ??????? Time is a precious resource that should be spent wisely. I was wrong about a few things but I think I know better now. I can’t afford to be out of commission. AT ALL.

I’ve heard so much about ZARA hauls. But there are no stores close to me. I have one piece by ZARA. I found it at Goodwill a few years ago. Perhaps a Goodwill haul will suffice!