Nikki In a Nutshell

For as long as I can remember I’ve wanted a pair of rain boots! In traditional yellow💕 Fast forward at least 4 1/2 decades, for about 5 minutes, last week, I considered a glossy red pair of Wellies ❤. TODAY, my brand spankin’ new BLACK (NEBULA) PEARL Hunter boots arrived! Big Girl Boots 🌧☔⛆ Raiiiaaan, come out and plaaayyyaaaaa!

So, you telling me NOW that if I didn’t answer your call this time, you weren’t going to try calling me again “after this” … 😂😂😂 … you should’ve told YOURSELF ‘THAT’ the LAST time you attempted to pounce … sparing us BOTH the bother.

a snake in the grass will never fail at being a snake in the grass … & YOU will always be beneath them … how low can/will you go?

FOUR SONS. FULL TERM. NO EPIDURAL ANESTHESIA. NO CESAREAN. WATERS BROKE NATURALLY. LABORED THROUGH DELIVERY. DADDY PRESENT AT BIRTH OF SON & SAW SON HOME WITH HIS LAST NAME. NOW, for the hard part …

Divine daughter. Completely joyful. Gratitude overflown. Tranquil peace. Valued friend.

Sure. Process. Mental. Confide. Act. Poet. Pose. Build. Plan. Develop. Reveal. Manifest. Esteem. Always.

What’s worse, lookin’ jealous or crazy?

Let me make something(s) clear. In my lifetime I have done MUCH that I am NOT proud of. I am no ‘saint’ by any stretch of the imagination. I’ve crossed several lines. I’ve paid for & CONTINUE to pay for my misbehavior(s). I’ll be the first to admit that I remain a work in progress & have a long, LONG way to go. I am not above reproach. I’ve been places & done things I have no recollection of. You feel me. MUCH of my life has been ONE BIG BLUR. While I’ve heard some express with words what they think of me personally, others have demonstrated unmistakingly by their actions. Some good some bad & some ugly. say say say (oooh oooh oooh) …

This beautifully/sadly expresses my 2-3 year old (me) sentiments … I’m now 57 1/4. It, too, utters ‘closure’ to this lifetime of nothingness between us.

It’s my potential. I’m not askin’, none of you, nothin’. Some call it shadow work. Some live a lifetime & never come close to understanding why … idiots … are everywhere. They have an unspoken language when they should be communicating (with you). But when they are up to no good (which is much of the time) they do talk, to all that will listen, non stop. It is the ‘idiot’ that participates over and over again in this bad behavior, by listening to the one(s) threatened by another’s potential, for years & years & … need I say more. It began when I was born & it has not stopped, smh. Have you learned to read between the lines? At some point making the (absurd/stupid) decision to erase my existence (in their mind), business as usual, moving forward with my husband & my offspring. GO FIGURE. Where they do that at … again, I’m not askin’ none of you nothin’. Take a look around. When an individual believes that what’s yours is theirs … your life is in danger. When you are eye witness to this kind of behavior & it’s alright with you, you are an idiot. I’ve long ago, packed up my potential … & moved elsewhere. Don’t start nothin’ … won’t be nothin’. You WISH you were me. It’s because you lack substance.