R.A.H.

Write about your first crush.

I may have been 16 years old. He was 19. I had feelings for him that shook me to my core. I didn’t know how to express them. I do not remember how they came to his attention but they did. He was experienced. A hard worker & responsible. I was impressed but had no clue that there was a table to bring anything to. I only wanted to talk with him about anything in peace just him & me. It eventually happened. Several times. We spent most of that time on the phone. He was so calm & cool. He had a mind of his own & participated in our friendship. He was thoughtful. He left quite an impression on me. We did eventually go our separate ways on good terms … so much so that when my last son was born I named him after me (male version of my middle name) & him (his middle name). He knows! See my entry “The Two That Got Away”

In Kind

What notable things happened today?

On any given day there can be a number of things needing to be done inside and outside with no desire whatsoever to do any of it. Sometimes leaving me overwhelmed. I wrote a short list of a literal few things that should not be put off since they could easily be done today and so I gently approached my day with my list in tow. I usually have a list so as not to forget what I set out to do but that is another story. I needed help/assistance while out and each encounter was pleasant. I was kind to myself & others today & the day & others were kind to me. #noted

Most Things

What are you passionate about?

… that I lend personal attention to. I hope to be more passionate toward certain matters & less about a few. Either way the thoughts leading up to making the decision to be or not to be is often mentally exhausting. I must strike a better balance in giving/not giving energy where it ought/ought not be. While I’m nowhere near all over the place, I can tighten things up a bit.

If I Do Say So Myself

What is your favorite season of year? Why?

Mid autumn through mid winter is how I manage the season. Everything about my life gets a nice overhaul during this time. I settle in/down reflect plan & prepare for late winter early spring & what it may bring. Merging the seasons together in this way makes my world more manageable, softer. I even do the months this way! I have three 10 day weeks to each month … it’s like switching gears … slowing things down a bit. In my mind there’s something harsh about not acknowledging the meeting in the middle of the seasons … it’s the best time no matter the season & they always go together nicely!