Talk to me AFTER viewing every episode of Will Smith’s “Best Shape of My Life”. Then read his book “Will”. I am not ‘your’ enemy (though this can be arranged) nor am I ‘your’ competition (that’ll never be). It is you that is against you. There’s nothing wrong with you. Some things just need to be undone & only you can undo them. But ‘you’ have to find them & do the tedious work of putting yourself back together along the way. Your dilemmas fights & struggles are within. May you figure it all out. You’ll be a better human for it.