Author: Nikki In a Nutshell

… that night before last while sleeping I began to feel sick as if I was going to throw up? I imagined/planned while still asleep how I was gonna get up make it out of my room past the bathroom through the living room into the kitchen to get the freshly emptied/trash bag lined trash can out of the kitchen back through the living room past the bathroom & back to my bedroom next to my bed & me back into my bed without throwing up. It was difficult not to throw up just thinking/planning it. It was much more difficult pulling it off. It was done in the dark & I was stumbling weak & dizzy the entire way … but there was no throwing up! I didn’t eat anything heavy yesterday & it looks like the same today. Still felt/feeling queasy ever since but hey … #bloganuary

You know … there has always been certain people that plain old lose it when they lay eyes on me for the first time especially when they know that it could be a situation that could go on for awhile. Can you imagine just how uncomfortable an individual HAS TO BE WITH HIM/HERSELF to outwardly forfeit all autonomy. Ain’t nothin’ I can do about it but bring it & leave it here. I’m aware of who/what I am & who/what I ain’t … & I can only do me while I continue to learn & grow. SIS BOOM BAH #bloganuary

Dropped in to discuss a few things regarding my coverage & met a woman close to her delivery date with twin boys! Gotta have my windshield replaced soon. Soon enough there will be another/other issues in need of addressing. #bloganuary

A few days ago I found a few hats for Naeem. I do hope he likes them since winter is already upon us … & the hats are on the way! Love & Warmth, YaYa❤️

So I decided a few days ago that only a farm table would do for my bedroom desk (or the like). I’m completely over the itsy bitsy teeny weeny one I’ve been wrestling with for the past three years faithfully. I need space. The table must be deep & long & inexpensive. I know I’m asking a lot. My mind is made up. #bloganuary

I can’t stand it … but I’m working on it … for ONE good reason! #bloganuary

Do enjoy the day! #bloganuary

Are you hoping to understand me … OR … you just want an answer … any. old. answer. I am not for play play. #bloganuary

Mama Johnnie is my great grandmother on my maternal grand fathers side. She appeared very old when I was very young. I was afraid of her from the inside out. I don’t remember her voice nor her face. What I do remember is she’d sit on the side of her bed during my visits with a white/pale colored gown/house dress on & her legs were riddled with something, red scabby patches. Her hair was white, not quite shoulder length and a bit messy. She looked Caucasian. As did my grand father her son. She’d reach for me to come closer to get a kiss on my forehead from her. She’d put both her hands on the sides of my head/face pull me in plant her kiss & set me free. I never got to know her. I don’t even know when she died. I look forward to meeting her/getting to know her when she’s resurrected with no ailments when she’ll grow younger every day and can enjoy the real life with her family and friends! It all will be so grand. #bloganuary

May our paths meet intertwine & grow inseparable … in due time. #bloganuary