Pain

In this apartment my most important transformations in life have occurred. In this very room I’ve broken down & put myself back together. I’ve learned to search my soul as to find it. To care for & protect it. Many conversations between me myself & I have taken place here. While researching subject after subject daily & nightly I lay on my elbows to the point of true unknown friction my Samsung tablet after years of holdin’ me down couldn’t take anymore. I found my voice in this very place. Got a lot off my chest that was never mine in the first place. I came to an understanding of some things that once held me in derision. I am in touch with myself & much has settled down. This very painful necessary growth of mine has made a few people quite uncomfortable surprisingly enough. I’m not responsible for how another feels about my growth. I understand now that people filter things through the lens of whatever personal ‘stuff’ that they have gone through/are going through and that has nothing to do with me. Now I’ll do what’s best for me.