Author: Nikki In a Nutshell

Let’s pretend we don’t know one another … & that none of it ever happened … you know, like we BEEN doin’.

As I slept several nights ago my hip slid into place! I was awake long enough to feel it. When I was fourteen years old one side sat higher than the other giving me the appearance that one leg was longer than the other. I do have scoliosis. So for some days now I’ve been experiencing relief in both hips & lower joints on both sides. Now my legs appear even!

When I was much younger I used to move the furniture & things around in my room often. I loved doing it. I’d put the Jackson 5 albums on & go to town! If it were a weekend I’d tune in to the radio & listen to countdowns & other specials. I’ve torn up several phones/cords dragging them around while I stretched to every corner high & low of my room. Sweeping … mopping … dancing … chilling … But now? It ain’t nowhere near as fun as it used to be. Today I decided was the day to move my bed dresser & wardrobe to lay a very large rug underneath. It will cover the majority of my room. The problem with that is it’s past my bedtime I’m tired & want to go to bed NOW. I’ve moved so much stuff around & out of my room … ain’t no telling WHEN it’ll be back together. I’ll work on getting my bed situated & get to the remainder tomorrow.

I want to talk. I don’t want to talk.

We all have a few to climb. Be brave, eager to learn, while taking it all in, & flexible in every since of the word … & may your journey be satisfyingly adventurous.

Yesterday evening I experienced a different kind of pain in my chest. It felt like a tear, a clearing an opening had occurred. Narrow & downward. It happened quickly. Afterward it seemed to have unlocked other pressures pain & stiffness I’d been having elsewhere. Something’s are going on inside. I do wonder what they are/could be but that’s as far as I’m going for now.

Aren’t they wonderful? There was a time when I didn’t feel this way about ‘change’ … but I’ve changed so much since then.

… minding my own business, I noticed blue lights everywhere … so I fell for it & it worked/works … for now anyway. #Monsieur

… let the river run …

… this is why my place is a bit out of sorts … I don’t wanna think about it either … does it even matter, at all? I’m working on one … never the other.