Author: Nikki In a Nutshell

Once upon a time a very immature/troubled young girl was sent off to do the job of a/her parent, by her parent, with/for her parents little one, on foot. It didn’t get done. We all know not to send a child to do an adults job. Answer me/US this. Why did you send an immature/troubled young teenager off on a task that you nor your partner would show up for, regarding Y’ALLS offspring? Why didn’t YOU see to it? Where was the baby daddy? This is ANOTHER of your ISSUES you’ve made mine. Well, you can have it back. I don’t want it.

I admit I may need to hear something’s many times while others you ain’t gotta tell me twice. Never mind what you thought.

… if I didn’t shout from the rooftop that I had quite the conversation with my grandson on Saturday! He had a lot to say & he is a very good listener! He is a beautiful baby boy! I want to/must see him touch him hold him smell him kiss him show up for him for myself. I feel like if I don’t it wouldn’t be right.

This past weekend was great. Never experienced this kind of great before. I think I belong in a group & all THAT entails. Ground Zero. I knew I was stuck but didn’t know/understand how/why. Explanations were offered but not clear to me right away. Everything AND some would become crystal clear on early Monday morning because I couldn’t/wouldn’t let it go. On Sunday a friend shared thoughts of associating that were nice. Another told me that I was much loved. supported by acts of kindness. Yet another invited me out to dinner! Oh, & my glasses are ready! Grateful I am! Let it show.

Trust me, I do. What you on tho.

Let’s pretend we don’t know one another … & that none of it ever happened … you know, like we BEEN doin’.

As I slept several nights ago my hip slid into place! I was awake long enough to feel it. When I was fourteen years old one side sat higher than the other giving me the appearance that one leg was longer than the other. I do have scoliosis. So for some days now I’ve been experiencing relief in both hips & lower joints on both sides. Now my legs appear even!

When I was much younger I used to move the furniture & things around in my room often. I loved doing it. I’d put the Jackson 5 albums on & go to town! If it were a weekend I’d tune in to the radio & listen to countdowns & other specials. I’ve torn up several phones/cords dragging them around while I stretched to every corner high & low of my room. Sweeping … mopping … dancing … chilling … But now? It ain’t nowhere near as fun as it used to be. Today I decided was the day to move my bed dresser & wardrobe to lay a very large rug underneath. It will cover the majority of my room. The problem with that is it’s past my bedtime I’m tired & want to go to bed NOW. I’ve moved so much stuff around & out of my room … ain’t no telling WHEN it’ll be back together. I’ll work on getting my bed situated & get to the remainder tomorrow.

I want to talk. I don’t want to talk.

We all have a few to climb. Be brave, eager to learn, while taking it all in, & flexible in every since of the word … & may your journey be satisfyingly adventurous.