Rhonda Atkinson

Here we are. It was beyond inappropriate for you to approach me at the Assembly Hall (of all places) only to spew nonsense between you and Cheryl. This is a pattern with you.

I’ve never approached you about anything. You’ve never approached me about anything theocratic. In short, I don’t have a single thing to do with your experiences with Cheryl. I have no dealings with her, & haven’t for a very long time. I don’t know what it is about this that you are refusing (at this point) to understanding. Every encounter I’ve had with you over the years, you’ve brought her up. I, in turn, every single time, have told you that I have no dealings, at all, with her.

Whatever hold on you that she obviously has is a matter that you must come to terms with/address, without me. I’ve done a lot of work to free myself of the problems she alone has caused through out the majority of my life, without your input.

Now, you, by way of her, are continuing to disrupt my personal peace. In the Kingdom Hall, repeatedly, for years, and now (most recently) at the Assembly Hall.

A degree of disdain toward me had to exist in you for you to approach me (at the Assembly Hall) and deliver the messages of ‘hate’ on your own behalf and that of your work colleagues, of whom I don’t even know nor they me. Cheryl is teaching you well. This is exactly the type of behavior you say you hate though this is what you do/have been doing to me for years. Can’t you see this?

It is clear to me Rhonda, that you need help overcoming somethings regarding your experiences with Cheryl. I did not give birth to her. She does not belong to me. I am far removed from how she shows up in the world. It is crystal clear that I must now protect myself, from the hold she obviously has on you. If you derived pleasure/relief of any sort, as a result of your behavior toward me, during the Circuit Assembly, you may want to talk to the elders.

Please, begin the work of determining why it is you continue to be tormented by Cheryl after all these years, which again, has not a single thing to do with me. Stop approaching me with it. If you can’t, I will approach the elders about the entire matter. That is your work to do. Be about it. Or remain ensnared.

In My Dreams

… last night I had a troubling dream. I lived in an apartment similar to my first apartment. Outside the door, in the long hallway was several angry young men, ranging from mid teens to 30’s. They were angry with me & those of my household, for unknown reasons. Whenever we’d come out of our apartment or open the door even, they would come toward us yelling & cursing in our faces. It was severely abusive. It seemed to go on for days. Someone eventually came to our rescue & the terror ceased but the people remained everywhere we went, tho muzzled. The hate remained in their eyes. The backdrop of the dream was dim & ended up being about clothing.

Today

… someone thought it was good & necessary to tell me that they hate my sister yet every time she sees me she asks about her & my mother. I, in no uncertain terms, have always said to her that I have no dealings/relationship with either of them. She went onto say that everybody at her job hates my sister & as soon as she retires she won’t be faking the niceness. I don’t care one way or the other what any of them do. Leave me out of it. I. Do. Not. Care.